The moment them words came out of your mouth..
"I think were done, i thought i could deal with you but i was wrong and now its messing with my mental health. Im sorry corey, but i cant do this anymore"
At the moment, It felt like my heart was ripped out and shoved back down my throat. It felt as if my heart was in my stomach.
I never thought id hear them words come from the same mouth of the person who once said.. I love you. I will always be there for you. I love you forever.
I guess forever is over.
I've come to learn in my short life, that nothing is forever. ever. All the words someone say, will one day be a lie and that is just a truth ill have to deal with.
On this day, ive realized that i am always negative about everything. Im always posting negative things. I need a more positive outlook on life. and that will start today. I will no longer mop around and hope for something good to happen. Everyday might not be a good, but damnit im going to try my hardest to turn that day around and smile.
Life is a journey, we only get to take once. I need to realize that and be a better person. for myself, my family, and the people around me.
Ive also realized that no matter what.. the only people who are always going to be there for me is my family. Though we have had our ups and downs.. at the end of the day, they are there to comfort my heart and love me no matter what.
Im determined to be a better person. I refuse to give up on myself. like so many people have done to me in the past.
Day 1 has sucked bad. I know that with due time, i will be okay.
How does your heart taste?
Not so good.
